Dhyanaparamita. The Fruition of Meditation. Abandoning.

(Painting: Total Abandon by Chris Brandley)

I can, in newly quickened inner life,

Sense wide horizons in myself.

The force and radiance of my thought –

Coming from the soul’s sun power –

Can solve the mysteries of life,

And grant fulfillment now to wishes

Whose wings have long been lamed by hope.

  From The Calendar of the Soul, Verse 28

Rudolf Steiner

Dear Friends,

Meditation is practice. In all practice there is a quiet calling that reminds us that there is a different, more easeful, more aligned, more integrated way of doing or being whatever it is that the practice is for.

The call to practice meditation sprouts, not only from an understanding based on hearing about the truth of goodness and the end of suffering, but from an absolute inner knowing that the way of goodness and the absence of suffering is the paramita of being. With continued and consistent practice of attending to just what is here with an open hand of equanimity, and staying with and continually returning to that attending , attachment and clinging to inflexible concepts about life and the ingrained habits of feeling and doing, lessen and loosen. The ways of being, thinking, feeling and doing begin to have a quality of malleability. We begin to see that the fixed ideas and inflexible ways of living as well as the judgments of ourselves and others are obstacles to the experience of ease and actually the causes of suffering. In seeing this, these ways begin to lose their hold on us and there is a natural effortless abandoning of the habitual ways. The experience of being might then be experienced as less cluttered, more spacious, and there is more ability to move fluidly and freely with the flow of things just as they are.

I can, in newly quickened inner life,

Sense wide horizons in myself.

As a result of some sort of inner memory or knowing and the call of the warming sun, every year the crocuses put their backs into the weight of snow and awaken to herald the transition from the darker days of winter to the brighter days of spring. Similarly, the true nature, the paramita of beingness that lies somewhat dormant under the weight of habitual, inflexible thinking, awakens with the light and warmth of gentle attending and the resulting malleability. This awakening, truest nature is vulnerable  and responsive to the suffering that it encounters in the world and is absolutely flexible, abandoning all preconceived notions, expectations or hopes of specific results. There is also an abandoning of the ideas of a separate self that can build impermeable walls to protect “me” from suffering or the evil things that threaten my separateness. All the concrete ideas about how life should be, and hopes about making it that way, melt under the “soul’s sun power” and life becomes workable. 

Coming from the soul’s sun power –

(I) Can solve the mysteries of life,

And grant fulfillment now to wishes

Whose wings have long been lamed by hope.

There is delight in the workings and flowings of life. There is clarity about how all sensings and experiencings, including suffering and the causes of suffering, ease and the causes of ease, contribute to the beauty of just this moment, this here-ness. That it is “all, all working.” (Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche) and that all of life, just as it is, is ever-creating and unfolding to reveal its Universal Goodness. 

This is the fruition of meditation, of attending, staying with, cultivating malleability, and abandoning: dhayanaparamita.


With these words I pay homage to all buddhas, bodhisattvas, sentient beings, and the totality. May these words not confuse, bring doubt, or harm, but bring ease and warmth and an end to suffering for all beings throughout all times and in all directions.




Practicing in sangha, even virtually, supports the practice of meditation differently than practicing solitarily. The members of the Sangha of the Pandemic, invite you to practice with us. No experience is required. There is no cost. Everyone is welcome. 

 We practice on ZOOM:


  • Mondays – Calm abiding. 6:30 AM Pacific Time
  • Tuesdays – Body awareness. 6:30 AM Pacific Time 
  • Thursdays – Tonglen, 6:30 AM Pacific Time 
  • Wednesdays and Fridays – Zazen Practice 7:00 AM Pacific Time.
  • Sundays – Paramitas. 7 AM Pacific Time 

ZOOM Link:   https://us02web.zoom.us/j/89989680789 

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